To those of you who care to know,

Sometimes it’s difficult for me to explain the clown. It’s very personal to me.

When I was fifteen I started to travel the world as a clown. No face paint, no performances, no expectations. The clown is an interesting character. Created out of spirit and play, the clown represents energy, passion, and emotion. They breathe life into an atmosphere. They are people readers. They are children. The clown gives everything and expects nothing. Their strength is in their joy. The clown takes your pain and offers comfort. And the clown will never judge you. They help to rediscover the world with the joy that we lost somewhere along the way. This is the clown. And this mask must never slip.

My travels led me to places like Haiti, Cuba, Venezuela, Serbia, and Sri Lanka. As a clown, I have seen the worst the world has to offer. I have seen war zones, played in refugee camps, danced in prisons, and kissed the hands of the dying. And I have never slipped. I am always strong.

My art explores what the world never sees: The effects of internalizing great heartache and outwardly exposing nothing. My pieces reflect what lies behind my clowning. There is rawness, pain, and a haunted sense of vulnerability. I let color become emotion. I paint what I feel and forget what I see. My art expresses the haunted reality that the clown tries to keep hidden. As a clown my world is constantly reviving joy, as a person I am not as strong. This series is another side of she.

Art reflects the painter. And in life sometimes we rise, and sometimes we fall. I won’t say much about this here. But this time in my life has been difficult. And my art is reflecting that. I sometimes feel as though I should apologize to those watchers who want to enjoy the art I used to make. When life was simpler and my spirit stronger. All I can say is that you will never expect what I have planned to come next. When my world finally stops spinning and I can pick myself up again.

I am having my first gallery opening in the late spring. So this series will continue to develop dramatically until then.

In peace and love,
sythesite

Realized it's been almost a year since I updated my journal. I've been posting art sporadically, but where I live now I don't have the ability to upload my art. But I've been doing lots, and posting a few whenever I journey to my parent's world.

The last few months have been incredible. Haiti, Ecuador, the Galapagos, and next week I leave for the Amazon, so all that paired with two jobs, and school full time keeps me very busy. But creating art never stops amid the chaos.

So, thank you for stopping by my very small little corner of the art world, and enjoy your time here, and every journey you take. Breathing is life. Water is life. Art is life. Arriba la paz.

This summer was intense and beautiful. Venezuela, Greece, Ecuador, and finished off with half a month in the Peruvian Amazon. But now it's back to school, back to reality, and to get caught up replying messages.

Hola! I have been in the Amazon for a week or so and I will not be home for another week or so. So those of you amazing people who have left me messages and got no reply, thats why. But once I am home I will be catching up.

I'm going to be in Europe for a few weeks and once I get home I leave right away for South America. So there will be no updates for a while, but then probably a big one in mid-June. So... watch out.

Anyways, if you leave a comment and I don't get back to you right away that's why... I'm off exploring the world!